Sidonia told me she wanted to experience hypnotic face slapping. Since our first trances went well, and since it is a big part of her kink that she has already explored extensively, I agreed. The result was dramatic. Each time I slapped my hand on my chest (because through Skype a handclap sounded too much like a finger snap) her head turned violently to the side, and I could see that it had an emotional impact too. She told me later that although the sting of impact wasn't comepletely real to her, the fear and anticipation of each slap, and the rush of endorphins afterwards, were. She also felt the hot glow in that cheek.
The mountains and hills of Switzerland out the train window were just as spectacular as I imagined them. In the evening we drove out to this combined TNG Switzerland/Seilschaften event, at a rope dojo that was to die for - mats everywhere, something like 12 hard points on the ceiling, and nice subdued lighting. At least 50 swiss kinksters showed up! I would have been super nervous, except that the group was *so* warm and friendly. Not to mention sexy.
I just didn't let myself think about the fact that I was presenting for real, in front of my biggest crowd ever, and so I had a wonderful time in my hour. I talked about myths of hypnosis, and then I did the demo with sidonia. After modelling some negotiation, I began the induction, and the room faded away for me, along with any lingering nervousness, until it was just the two of us. This time the hypnotic slaps were even more dramatic, and I saw at least two audience members flinch powerfully along with her. (in the future I should warn about the possibility of collateral trancing.) I was blown away by the talent and bravery of my partner, and I so happy we could show a little of what makes hypnokink so compelling.
There were a lot of terrific questions from the audience, and then I led a participatory exercise about kinaesthetic inductions. It turned out to tie in well with the second workshop, which was an amazing rope-less rope class about physical connection and rapport.
Then the evening turned into a lot of high-level rope and impact play, with some truly impressive suspensions. I didn't even bother to try some rope with someone - apparently I'm letting that go completely for now - but I did have some lovely little hypno scenes. Major points to this event for having amazing cake, and really interesting people to hang out with at quieter moments.
Saturday was also an amazing day for sexy hypnosis, where I got to play with another lifelong hypnofetishist. I might write about it at a later date. Even more importantly: I got to dine with SMdiClasse and plastika, and *finally* saw Mad Max: Fury Road on the big screen in english.
On Sunday, sidonia brought me on a hike up mount Rigi. Besides the glorious views of the hills and lakes and oh-so-photogenic cows, as well as the lovely historic mountain railroad, we were excited to do a little mountaintop hypnosis. Sidonia told me she wanted to trip: to use hypnosis to get into a psychedelic mental state similar to what she has experienced with mushrooms and LSD, where sounds and sights become enormously intense, blending together in strange ways and causing wild emotions and fancies.
I hypnotized her on a bench overlooking the lake, not far from a mountainside meditation center, which seemed appropriate. As I sat beside her and described the drug flowing through her system, and affecting each of her senses in turn, I could feel mself perceiving the world differently too. The bits of tree fluff floating in the air through sunbeams seemed to shine, and it was as though I could see the leaves of the trees as one morphing mass, inseparable from the spaces between them. But since I've never done hallucinogens I don't know how similar my experience was - I was going by her long and vivid description of what it's like for her.
Beginner's mistake: talking her through the nausea stage of shrooms kicking in. Not necessary!
It was wonderful to watch her dreamily gazing around, or cocking her head to one side to listen better - never once looking at me, because as she told me on shrooms human flesh is ugly to her. I brought her back and gave her a post-hypnotic trigger to return to that state, even outside of trance, and we continued our ramble down the mountain.
Sidonia also tripped with me in a peaceful dark forest area partway down (the top of Riga is extremely busy with tourists, since the train goes right up there and there's a huge restaurant etc - so different at the summit than our northern Italian mountains, let alone Canada), and then that evening sitting outdoors at a restaurant on the Reuss river in Lucerne. Again, I couldn't experience what she was experiencing, but I was fascinated to hear about it.
In one long weekend I did more hypnosis than I have in months. This should hold me for a while - though I'm having plenty of wistful thoughts about the people I spent time with. Sure wish it wasn't 7 hours away.
Two things I want to improve on: a couple of times, with new people with whom I didn't feel that confident, and in the busy party environment, I fell back on rote inductions and didn't truly commit to the session. In the future I want to be fully present and use all my ingenuity to explore a hypnotic experience with someone, even as we're still learning our way around each other.
The other thing is that most of my play was ideas my partners came up with. This is awesome to me, and completely in my comfort zone. I completely get off on being a "service dom" (as I heard Wiseguy describe himself on his episode of the Sex Nerd Sandra podcast), giving my partners pleasure, and making their fantasies come true. I'm delighted by the creative requests my partners come up with, and the challenge in realizing them, requests like, "I'd like to experience being tied up in a sitting position and lifted up into the sky above Röntgenwiese by hundreds of balloons." The depiction of that she sent me is now one of my most prized (digital) possessions:
At the same time, I should be more forward about proposing things I want. I always have plenty of ideas about what I'd like to do to someone (or with someone, if they prefer a non-D/s vibe) in trance, but I'm shy about it. It only come up when they say, "what do you want to do?" Obviously I feel the most on solid ground consent-wise if someone brings their fantasy to me, but I have the skills to ask for things in a light and open-ended way, and I should use them.
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